frail yet found

"to strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield"

thoughts, poetry, essays

There’s always that tension, between contentedness and wanting to spring forward into something more. What if content is something more? Can we spring forward and tumble in on our selves, revere the somersault?

She wondered

if nomads had ever stepped here, if their memories made the traces their soft shoes didn’t. Did someone kill their dinner here? Was love made, a family disbanded? Did sickness demand its ransom? Did a god touch this earth?

She folded herself down and threaded her fingers through grass. Is it happy like this, free and flowing? She poked underneath and withdrew a brown finger.

Why is the earth red? Did someone have to die to give the world color?

Cry for water?

Smile for clouds?

The bell rang, time to go inside. She didn’t want to learn about the planets or cholorophyll. She wanted to stay in the field and invent her own reasons and ask questions and sing songs to silent ancient moccasins.

50 Books in 1 Year

Well…I did it! I met my goal of reading 50 books from May to the end of April :D

Here’s the rundown:

Memoir

1. Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

2. Running in the Family by Michael Ondaatje

3. The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch

Novel

4. Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen

5. The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand (well, I technically only read the last 400 pages in this time frame but that’s enough to constitute a normally-sized book)

6-8. The Hunger Games Trilogy by Suzanne Collins

9. Oracle Night by Paul Auster

10. The Perks of Being a Wallflower

11. The Secret Agent by Joseph Conrad

12. Howards End by E.M. Forster

13. Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf

14. Goodbye to Berlin by Isherwood

15. The Loved One by Waugh

16. The Lonely Londoners by Selvon

17. Wide Sargasso Sea by Rhys

18. Changing Places by Lodge

19. The Remains of the Day by Ishiguro

20. Time’s Arrow by Martin Amis

21. Fahrenheit 451 by Bradbury

22. Looking for Alaska by John Green

23-25. The Circle Trilogy by Ted Dekker

26. Cutting for Stone by Abraham Verghese

27. The Cement Garden by Ian McEwan

Poetry Collections

28. A Village Life by Louis Gluck

29. Averno by Louis Gluck

30. White Egrets by Walcott

31. Poems by Edna St. Vincent Millay

32. Indivisible: An Anthology of Contemporary South Asian American Poetry

Artistic/Literary Commentary

33. The Art of the Poetic Line by Longenbach

34. The Empty Space by Peter Brook

35. Aspects of the Novel by E.M. Forster

Short Story Collections

36. Too Much Happiness by Alice Munro

37. Unaccustomed Earth by Jhumpa Lahiri

38. In Other Rooms, Other Wonders by Daniyal Mueenuddin

39. Arresting god In Kathmandu by Samrat Upadhyay

Graphic Novel

40. Ramayana: The Divine Loophole by Sanjay Patel

Play

41. Moonlight by Harold Pinter

42. Ruined by Lynn Nottage

43. Twelfth Night by Shakespeare

44. Lysistrata

45. “Master Harold” …and the Boys by Athol Fugard

46. Wit by Margaret Edson

47. A Streetcar Named Desire by Tennesee Williams

Essay Collections

48. At Large and At Small by Anne Fadiman

49. Ex Libris by Anne Fadiman

Psychology Nonfiction

50. Blink by Malcolm Gladwell

I bolded my faves for reccomendations in case anyone is interested in borrowing something from me or checking one of these out. :)